October 21, 2012

I dragged myself with a heavy heart and tissue box in tow to the clinic. I knew what they were going to say. But to our complete surprise, the babies were still there! They looked great and had strong heart beats. Our elation, however, was very short lived. The doctor looked grim. He said each baby had a very large subchorionic hematoma that was causing significant placental separation. He said there was a greater than 50% chance I'd lose the pregnancy. A sense of doom set in. I tried to be hopeful. As my husband put it,  "50% is better than 0%". But deep down I felt this was not going to have a happy ending after all.