June 27, 2013

Thought I'd share my recent medical drama albeit unrelated to my infertility issues. My knees have been causing a lot of pain so I've taken to wearing stiff braces on both legs. Not comfortable but it seems to work. If that wasn't funny looking enough, I went on vacation to visit my parents and accidentally let their dog out. While running after him, I took a nasty fall and sprained my hand. So add now a hand brace. And here's the kicker. I was out enjoying a hot day in the water and rubbed my eye too hard apparently because I ended up in the ER for a corneal abrasion. Add now an eye patch. Seriously.

Visited the Hematologist yesterday. 21 vials of blood taken. Should hear back in a couple days if he found anything. If all clear, I am good to go for IVF # 3.

Thought I'd also share I've now met with three MFMs at different establishments. It's interesting because they all have a different take on the loss. But the general consensus is the bleeding acted like a wick that lured infection into the uterus. Once infection set it, the body reacted to save itself and remove the pregnancy by rupturing the membrane. In the absence of bleeding, they say I have a good chance of carrying a pregnancy to term. The chance of this happening again is between 16-20%. Not an insignificant statistic by any means but here's hoping the odds are in my favor next time.

June 5, 2013

Life is actually getting better emotionally. I still think about my babies every day. Tears crop up every now and then. It's really hard to see pregnant ladies as my due date approaches... knowing that could have been me. Feeling my belly from time to time and realizing nothing is there anymore breaks my heart. Seeing newborn boy/girl twins is especially rough. Knowing mine are only ashes in a box in my room instead of happy, bouncing, living, breathing babies. But I'm still motivated. I'm not giving up. I'm working really hard to set everything up to try again. I'm ready emotionally but physically not quite yet unfortunately. Our RE  ran a bunch of blood tests... 18 vials and counting. There was an anomaly in the protein C result so he is having me meet with a Hematologist in a few weeks. We'll see if that leads anywhere. Otherwise, everything blood-wise was normal. We also did a hysteroscopy and uterus looked good. No scar tissue thank goodness. But I was in for a surprise. The endometrial biopsy showed chronic inflammation of the uterus. AKA endometritis. Not fun. I was put on two super power antibiotics for two weeks. It sucked. And just when I thought I was finally in the clear, a good old yeast infection courtesy of the antibiotics has appeared. Yay! Hopefully I'll be given the thumbs up by my RE to try again soon provided Hematology gives me the clear and there are no more surprises.